THIS IS FOR JOHN ANDREW , WHO WAS ABUSE AS A CHILD , GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT THOSE MONSTERS DID TOO HIM . BUT AT 43 YEARS OLD HE'S IN SO MUCH PAIN AND HE'S KILLING HIMSELF ... AND AM HAVEING A HARD TIME SEEING THIS HAPPEN ...MOST OF MY POST ARE EITHER UP BEAT AND POSTIVE OR SEXUALLY CHARGED ..BUT I NEED THIS WEEKEND TOO BE TRUE TO MYSELF AND TRUELY LOVE MY NEIGHBOR AS MY SELF ...MAY GODS LOVE BE WITH JOHN